Its OFFICIAL

I am soooooo PROUD to say that I have completed my UNDERGRAD career!!! I turned in my last final on Wednsday and to celebrate me and my roomie went out to LA for Tacos @ Gran Burrito(the BEST place, open 24/7!!!!) then went on a random excursion through LA, Brentwood, Bevery Hills and other areas in search of photographic locations. I think we were somewhat of a sucess, all I know is that I definately had a blast with her and her sister. Im proud of myself and I really could have NOT done it at all w/o the wonderous support of my mom and sister. Through tears and screams they were my constant cheerleaders. I'd like to say that this is for them........

love

I miss summer days and getting lost. I want to get lost right now in this field. Just me and cameras, lets see what becomes of us. What will become of us come 2012? Many possibilites.... thousands of fears and millions of uncertainty...... Im hopeful thats all I can be

Time goes on

Whew its been a MAD minute. OK so you know humans HATE change right? I know I do I hate it so much because it brings uncertainty, fear. Well for the past 3 months my life has been NOTHING but change. And at first i felt like "Shit when I'm I gonna catch a break?" but now I embrace it, how else do we grow if we don't experience change?
Lot's to update but I'll keep it brief:

• The verdict is in and I am OFFICIALLY graduating like for real, no questions.
• Me and the Boy broke up, which is good never have I been happier. He will always stay my best friend but right now our lives aren't meant for one another. I love him still that will never change.
• I'm staying put in Covina for the time being, I think God just wants me here for a reason so who am I to toy with his plan?
• I am now ENROLLED @ LBCC, getting my certificate in Fashion Merchandising
• My family continues to support and inspire me more and more everyday, I really have beautiful treasures

You know soooo much change has happen, I have broken down countless of times but I'm happy right in this moment. During Thanksgiving, I had this moment in which we were all sitting around laughing and drinking wine and all I could think of is capturing that moment and living in it for ever!!!

Continue to remain positive amongst all the negative. God provides always and he never fails. We need to continue out quest for obtaining knowledge for we are the seeds that need to be planted so that we may bear fruits and others will prosper from us. Keep your heads High and remember that things can always be worse.

Forever PEACEful

I found some very old pictures in the process of packing up my apartment, this is a very VERY small miniscule glimps of my family... like really small


These are my parents back when they were still together, I know i know, WHAT WAS MY MOTHER THINKING WITH THOSE GLASSES, but what can I say? My mom is my mom, and big glasses is the only thing she has ever worn ahahahahahaha


And this is my family, well parts of.... before the little one came along :). This was at my baptisim and yea.....

Now this is my BIG sister. Growing up we did some very nasty things to one another. But when she went away to school she realized that I was growing up and we grew VERY close. Yes she is one of my best friends who still fight over stupidest shit ever, fights may get really nasty but in the end blood is thicker than anything else and it's what makes our bond grow stronger.

Oh this is my little sister.... ahhhhh we were EFFIN cute as little kids... but she has blossomed into a beautiful young lady who I might add is on her way to The Art Academy in San Fran. We have had MAJOR differences but as we gotten older I appreiciate my little monkey much more. And I am super proud of her.

And Finally this is my grandpa (dad's dad) ugh This is probably the ONLY picture I have of him with me... my abuelito is quite the catch and man I wish I could have been older to meet him and remember him, I was very little when he passed away, from what I understand he was a stubborn man (apple doesn't fall far from the tree). But he is in a better place probably causing mi lita great grief.......

Crochet Mania

Ok so I am TOTALLY into crocheting right now.... and I found awesome websites, if you know of any let me know!!!!

My 5 favorite things Tuesday

Hahaha ok so I know it's such a random day but I will do random my favorite things each week if you want to know specific Fav's let me know!!!!

T.v Shows

1. Big Brother 11

Not to mention Jeff is effin HOOOOTTTT!!!

2. Three Sheets

Truely the best drinking game EVER!!!!! Takes you around the world and introduces diff drinking customs.

3. ABDC

Do I need to say more? Makes me wanna get up and do my thang!!!!

4. The George Lopez Show

"Mira Sabes que?"

5. Sex and the City

These bitches can rock a mean walk..... in Manilo's

Hope you are having a FABULOUS week, I am cleaning my apt so we can get the movin!!!! ugh all the dust is making me sickie-sickie

scratch scratch

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Im so effin itchy!!!!!
I dont what I ate, noooo no peanuts......
I think im really allergic to Wally World.....
oh gOOdie :). hmmmmmmm
My teeth get pulled next week and I am NOT looking forward to it :( plus I still need $300 bucks... wanna be my shuuuga daddy? thanks! lol
kiiDIIiiing you nasty perves

Inspiration

Yep, I have been having LOTS of it lately.
I came across this blog by this uber cute girl who's style my sister thinks reminds her of me and she has "MY Fav's Sunday"
I think I shall do something like that but I cant quite commit to a specific day, since I rarely right on this.....
And I wonder if anyone really reads my blog?
Anyways, I have hit a hard project and I am determined to "make it work" like Tim Gunn says.

Don't kick me down

It seems that I am forced to stand in the middle of 2 roads, do I take the one with all my dreams, my aspirations or do I settle for the "working class" of corporate america? Normally I don't give a shit what other people say about corprate america I do my own thing, but how can it be implied that I should give up my dream? I worked damn hard to get to where I am at, I have always had to pay for my own way, except for La Verne that credit goes to my mom. But I cannot begin to state how pissed,hurt,devestated I am that giving up my dreams would even be an option. I will end up in the fashion idustry one way or another, if I have to kick and scream at thier doors I will be something that I always dreamed of.

ok ok

So life is what it is......
Things are happening and things are changing, many people have came and left my life just as quick.
Summer sun has been nice
so has school
my back has been KILLING me.... but not much I can do except get massages and take pain pills none which I like to do....
My bike is getting fixed and soccer is soooo fun, Im starting to exercise a little more so that I can be normal again.
hmmmm... right now I am in this mode of I like to rhyme so imma stop because all of this seems like a rhyme session to me!!!!!
But all I can say is that GOD has been really good to me and my family apart from circumstances that are unavoidable..... we have grown stronger....

summa tiiime

ok yea I know its been a while......
Summer school sucks right now especially cuz I just found out I can't take stats, so I might not graduate till spring which im upset about....
ugh lots is going on right now.... none of which I have the energy to explain... but yea
just wanted o check in

So its settled

I will live on campus next semester, cuz the roomie decided not to leave me..... YAY!!!! well anyways, finals is approaching and I couldn't be happier, I look forward to long summer days and awesome moments with my love bug. Im trying to take one thing at a time and just let life go because I cant always plan my next move

life oh life

When it rains it pours.
Duex weeks more than for the time being I can relax
See life unfold
I miss the old me.
Maybe this is God's route for me
I wish I could be in on the secret too though
that would be nice

My Mommy

My mommy holds me in her arms at night
when Im too scared to sleep
She holds me in her arms at night
If all I do is weep
My mommy holds my hands at times
When Im too scared too see
She takes away all my weakness
which makes her oh so sweet
My mommy spots me time to time
When I have no dime to spare
She laughs at my dumb jokes
when no one else really cares
My mommy is my hero
this much is true
My mommy is much more than my mommy
she's me super best friend too.


I always say how much I admire my mom for all that she does, but no one really understands it. She really would move the moon and stars and sun to give me everything that I need. And she has always done that, all that I have accomplished so far really could not be possible without her always pushing me and cheering me on and yelling at me to not give up, and really always listening to me rant and rave about everything.I am INCREDIBLY lucky to have such an amazing person in my life, she centers me and she is the reason Im graduating College she is the reason I came back from Texas, she is the reason I am who I am.

For all Mommy's out there Happy Mothers day, because your kids will never be who they grow up to be with out you.

Crazy-ness

No wonder I feel delirious, over the weekend I got on average 3 1/2-4 hours of sleep each night trying to finish this stupid 15 page paper that is due today, and I managed to finish by LAST NIGHT, so no worries about working on it today. Although I still have 3 4pg papers to finish along with 2 ppt presentations. so yea, and it dawned on me that this is my last week of classes and next week are finals ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Oh man I'm so stressed right about now. But, ugh I have to compose myself and trust that God provides which I know he does it just feels much better to rant and rave for the time being. lol. Any who, my best friend is gone and she didn't say bye to me, and on Friday the realization of me not seeing her hit me. it was sad, my mgr came back from LOA, and I soooo glad to see her, and we started talking and i BROKE down, Friday I was a mess really I was crying at the drop of pin. I think I just needed to cry really bad and after I felt much better. But ugh..... life seems so unsure right now.

Friendship is...

Our friendship is an ocean, stretching Far and wide Never ending-Filled with memories-That last a lifetime You've always known Just what to sayYou were always there,When I needed you the most When I needed-A shoulder to cry on Yours was always waiting When I needed-Someone to talk to You were there Just listening When I needed-Someone to hug Your arms were Doors wide open to me Our friendship's Just like the Stars-Both go beyond Man's reach All of the giggles we shared Let the salty taste of tears Run down our cheeks All the Laughs,The smiles,The hugs,The inside jokes, The hours online, And The eighty minute phone calls Just because You were the family that God forgot to give me.
Oh *sigh* 1st Corinthians 13:4-7 not only applies to love between man and wife but I also think through friends too. The things as they may be, I will never lose her.


*Why do we ALWAYS procrastinate? I SHOULD be in the shower getting ready for work, but here I am typing away, not even WORKING on my paper. ok really? imma start...... AFTER class finishes, I think I will be living at the library this whole week.

Whew....

Man WHAT a last couple of days.... I did this in my cultural class and I wanna share it with everyone......
I am from where the sun always shines
I am from variety of foods at your doorstep
I am from late night drink-a-thons
I watch lots of internet television
I listen to old school music
I know karma sucks!
I believe in a higher power
I love photography and children
I want to be known in my industry
Ah ok, so let me give you the quick run down.....
My best friend got married on Friday, and is moving to Arizona, Like I think she is making a HUGE mistake but I cant do anything now, its down and she's preggers so she thinks she knows what she's doing but I dunno. I think I would be UBER happy for her if her hubby got a good job over there, but no he has to finish his probation there. And even if they didnt move I'd be happy for her cuz she'd be here. But its dine so what ever.
I applied for graduation on Wed. OMG I will be enrolled in my final 5 classes in fall and be done by Mid-December. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh so excited, yep I'll have a crazy ass summer but for the most part im super stoked, and so in January I will be starting a Long Beach City, and I'll be getting my certificate in fashion merchandising. ah, the thing im most excited about is the fact that I'll be closer to home.

hahaha

I never knew how good of a bullshitter I can be. Today was a long day of laying underneath my jersey knit sheets, queen size comforter, and a zebra print mexican type blanket. Yea VERY WARM, plus you know life is good when you dont get out of your pj's till 3:30 in the AFTERNOON!!!!hm..... now I gotta clean the mess the tornado threw up!

hm...

Ok so its early and im NEVER up this early, lazyness I know. But I've been up since 9:30, and Im sitting her just thinking about everything. My stinky whom really? I never thought I could love with all my heart, we have such an amazing bond that I dont think we could have gotten it without going through A LOT of ups and downs. My dad who I THANK God for getting him better, he will hopefully return back to work soon. But in a lot of ways I see way too much of him in myself and its kinda scary, like some if it is not all bad but when it comes to me and Ishie, its like "I dont want to end up like him" and me and Ishie had this talk already, you know we come to an understanding that right now we are 2 sailboats sailing side by side, we have to put ourselves first and then when we get married we put our relationshp first. I would LOVE to marry this man, really I would but I hear ppl and thier troubles and how they say marriage is the hardest thing and whatnot, I THINK we can do it but im unsure.....And my Bestie like I know right now she loves the guy but when you marry him you marry the family and his family.... hahahaha.....I just want her to make the right descision b/c if you add a baby into the mix it starts to complicate things. Ok I think Im done for now. Have a good day and like my roomie tells me "life is life" and there is nothing that we cant do!

What a weekend

So I found out that Imma be a TIA AGAIN!!! but I cant say from who. Lets just say when I found out I CRIED!!!! ahahaha, but they were uber happy tears, and no My sister is NOT preggers. So she is out, any who here is some more fotos of my little nephew, who is the most HANDSOME thing right now..... Big sister Holding him Mommy and the baby b4 she started to feed him

Plus My sister gave these to me today and I thought they were sooo cute I HAD to post it!

Angel Garcia

ahhh Ok so today, my "big sister" had her little boy.
OMG I was sooooooooooo stoked. We went to the Hospital at like 6 pm took some pictures of her, against her will. Then went to go get some ice cream, all natural MEXICAN kind. it was DELICIOUS!!! and by the time we were heading back she had him.

So, without further adieu here is Angel Fabian JR Garcia.......

So he weighed 7 lbs 8 ounces 20 inches long, and came into this world at 6:58pm. OMG im a tia now. ahhhhh this baby is so precious. His birthday and his name hold a lot of meaning to my "big sister", First today is her mom's birthday, and Angel came from her dad who sadly passed away 3/10, I think Ishie is right in the sense that when one life goes another life is born, and Angel has tooooOOOnns of angelitos looking out for him.... *sigh*

Im entranced

Ok so me and the boy wen over to my dad's last night for dinner. Then we got started on talking about Vegas and how I havent been yet but that I wanna go to gamble. My dad was shocked and pursued telling about the penny slots and how he wanted to take me. Well there is a casino out in San Jancinto called Soboba, so I was like well lets go now. My hunny was down and so was my dad. So after I deposited my check, we all got cash out, except my dad :( ahaha, and headed out on the 60 into long DARK SCARY roads. Serio? like these roads were a perfect scene for that perfect horror movie. I was SCUUUUUREd. Anyways, we get there I get hooked up with a members pass and watch my dad play a couple machines. I decided to give it a go, I put in 5 bucks and the time i was done I ended up with 30 bucks. So im feeling good you know, and my dad tells me to try out the one called Wolf Run. IM hooked, long story short I came with 40 bucks and left with 0!!!!!!! yea im sad, but I had fun and it was in good faith and yea.

Yay!!!

So today I find out that my BABY SISTER has been accepted into THE ACADEMY of ARTS UNIVERSITY!!!!! The school is in San Fran, and omg, Im in such awe of her. This one has a gift and wow. Im truely speechless, all 3 Padilla girls are going to college. I cant be any more prouder of my sisters right now. Yes we are all soo soooooo very different and all choose to go into different career paths but its that fact that we are recieving a higher education that makes me proud of them. agh, I cant stop crying, im soo silly. But really Im so proud of all of us.

Lovely day

Today was my Nina's birthday, and I was sooo excited to see her. I got her some Orchids and Calla Lillie's which were sooo gorgeous i might add, so that she can add to amazingly HUGE backyard garden. OK a little background, for the longest they had a home that I practically lived in, and the whole place was like a jungle, LITERALLY, my Nino used to work for a nursery and he always brought home plantas and whatever to grow. way in the back was a big cactus patch along the walls, a blackberry and raspberry tree, guava tree and a HUGE lemon tree. That was just in one part, he had this pretty big pond that he used to put fish in and a hand made bridge over it. Omg this place would always win beatification awards, but they had to sell the place b/c of the 5fwy expanding which sucks because that's was my second home. But now her house is big and beautiful and filled with lots of plants and I love it there and I really enjoyed our conversation and I hated that I had to leave. But omg I love this lady she is my second mom, the reason I really have all the manners that I do.

Yes I know I know

Sooooo sorry really I am, ugh I could use a good vent. But Im not going to instead imma do some updates:
1. Me and the roomie are running a mile every night and sit ups.
2. This friday will be the 4 year anniversary of my abuelita's death, and still I am sooooo very hurt. I can still feel her arms wrapped around me, the flabiness of her skin. Gosh I miss the shit out of her. But really? I think that she takes care of me more than I know.
3.Please, please send lots and LOTS of prayers and happy thoughts with good karma to my sister, who is going through a tough time.Its kinda funny b/c all my life it has always been Mom my sister and me against everyone else. We hold such a strong bond with one another, and for me it's like if one is suffering, I feel thier pain.
4.My mom is starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I hope and really I cant be any more relieved. This women is really a tough cookie, she is my cheerleader who encourges the SHIT out of me when Im beating myself up.Like I was thinking the other day, how would I go on with out my cheerleader on the sidelines to tell me you can do it, you can do it. Like its so cliche to say "oh with out my mom I dont where I'd be" but for me? I REALLY would not know. I could have ended up in the streets doing drugs, hanging out with the gangsters, doin God knows what, but most of all I would definately not be here in school, finishing my degree. All that I seem to do is for her now, like I wanna make her sooooo proud of me, and I know she is already super proud of me. I love my mom to the super max!!! lol
5.I cant believe im almost done with school!!! and im buying myself some more time by going back to community to get a certificate in fashion. YAY!!!

Weekend

Well the weekend came and left as usual, and really? Not a lot of interesting stuff happend. Well, kinda. Ok so Thurs. night my Hunny took me out to Norms for some dessert which was nice, well cuz he was actually craving brownie, so we order the HUGE, and I mean HUGE brownie sundae, um yea not real brownie PLUS it had nuts on it (Im allergic to peanuts) and halfway through devouring this thing he realizes it and throws a fit, makes the lady take it back give him REAL brownie, and now my throat is closing up on me. UM NOT GOOD, i didnt have my inhaler, so i had to calm down and drink LOTS of water and im glad I didnt have to go to the hospital but.... Saturday was my old friend from H.S and co-worker's baby shower, I couldnt go cuz of course I had to work and OF cours no one wanted to switch. So after work I went from store to store buying some stuff to make for her (who doesnt like a homemade gift?) and it came out sooo cute, Ill have to post pics later. OH! and on a happier note (sarcastic tone) My future mother-in-law came back, she lives in Texas and since they moved out there last May, she has came and left at least 8 times. Coming from a lady who always say's "im not EVER going back!!! I dont wanna die out there" ahahahaha.... yea, I mean its not like i DONT like his mom, I do, its just that we lose our privacy, I can't come over and spend the night when I want to, I cant stay till like 12 at night ect. I even have stuff there, and I only took back my Blanket cuz I know she is gonna leave again anyways. But anywho, I cooked for his mom and his aunt AND the sister (they invited themselves) and I got TONS of praises. So, ahhhh here we are into a new week, and Im already not feeling it.

Funny Funny

Ok so my roomie is taking her Permit test in a couple of weeks, and my leg was hurting last night so I let her drive to Wal-Mart which is like 10 min away, no accidents (THANK GOD), but it was kinda funny. She is gonna need a lot more practice I told her. PLUS, I did like a whole SPRING cleaning in my room last night which helped because the past few nights I have had a really hard time sleeping and I think its because all the clutter was throwing me off, and last night I slept like a doll. Plus no funky stench of dirty dishes....ewwwww. ok I think imma take a nap now hahahaha

oh wow

Ok soooo sorry that I havent updated in awhile, I kinda forgot my password. haHA. ok so lots of updates:
1. I sprained my foot (wearing sandals, IN THE RAIN) so it IS kinda my fault. But this happen like 2 wks ago and my foot is still hurting me quite bad. So Im trying to stay off of it and keep it bandaged and iced.
2. My tire blew out on the freeway last week, and my the time I stopped I was facing oncoming traffic. Although a flat tire doesnt seems like much, it was scary being in a car that I had no control over, and I thank the ALL MIGHTY ONE ABOVE and whatever angels he had protecting my car that Im still here. No one hit me, everyone stopped and I never hit anything. So im grateful to be breathing.
3. So many babies coming into this world in my life and I TOTALLY love it!!!My Old Nieghbor, who is like a BIG sister to me is expecting a little boy, and this caught me COMPLETELY by suprise, I am sooo excited about her new baby, that I offered my sisters services to make her baby shower invites. Which are TOTALLY cute. Also, My old HS friend Myrna is expecting a boy who will be ABSOLUTELY friggin cute. My Co-worker(ATE, which is big sister) is also expecting a boy, My other Co-Worker is having a girl. and for the BEST NEWS my cousin LORA is also expectiNG!!!!!!!! This was super exciting because we now that she has been trying for a long time and now god has blessed her and Mitch with a baby. SOOOooooo excited. and on a sadder note, one baby close to me didn't make it to this world.
4. I hate when Parents don't ever stop to think whether or not their lifes matter to us. I personally would want to know if my parent is sick or not so that if I am in any danger I can make the right desicions and figure out the right course of action. Not only to look out for me but also to look out for my parent so that if I need to make decisions for them I can know what im facing. UGH!!! anyways
I will try NOT to forget my code and update more often.

Amor de un Mama

I never really understood when a mothers say that the hardest thing is to stand back and watch helplessly as thier child goes through a rough patch, till now. I have always been the type to put others before me, thats how I am. I always tried to grow up quicker than I was suppose to, wanting to be the "wise" one, the one that always knew what to do, the one always shelling out advice. Now that the time has come, I now get the pleasure to stand back and watch my mom helplessly. AND IT SUCKS!!!!!! I wish I can wipe all the stress away, this is my mom here, the fearless, independent women who didnt take bs from anyone. My hero, who now needs to be saved. I know everyone is going through rough times, and it sucks. I feel so helpless, I try, I try so hard not to ask much of her, and I know this bugs her so. But its ok mom, I'll be the Supergirl now. Because even though Im the baby, I'll grow up like I should have and take responsibilty like Im suppose to.

aHhhh

Man Im sooooo angry. Ok so today I decided that I am turning the car in and no longer helping my dad make the car payments. I feel relieved, I do, but im mad because he still expects me to give him money when I already told I have none. And I know that when I need him to help me with tuition he wont. And it sucks for reasons beyond my control, I cant run to anyone. So if you know anybody that is willing to give me 50, 000 dollars, no strings, i would be ETERNALLY grateful. HAH! i know that won happen but a girl can dream right?

A New Day

WOW! Today history was made. U.S overwhelmingly voted a black man to be our 44th president. And Today he was sworn in. As I watched the day unfold, I never took a moment to take in what this moment in history really meant. Who would have thought that a black man would be our new president. Who would have thought that a female would have even tried to RUN?!?!?! I think that this is clearly a new day in history. A new day that marks a journey that will take us through an emotional roller coaster, its not going to be easy, even Obama said so, but with this historic change, god knows what else will come to us. America truly the land of the beautiful.

Ugh!

Its HOT, and Im sittin at home BORED. And comes to find out I have Bronchitis, which sucks cuz all I do is hack, and choke, and spit up nasty shit. (you probaly didnt need to know that) but ANYWHO, so Im on a quest to listen to some really underground, retro, indie/alternative music that can get me dancing. Im kinda getting tired of the same ol stuff. So I started listening to Ladytron, Ladyhawke which is cool, but I need something that is gonna challenge me. So got any tips? let me know. And if you have a copy of HOUSE-O-HOLICS Vol.2 let me know, I love that shit. but its hard to find.

Dreaming

So I know its been awhile, I actually been sick. NOT AGAIN!!!! Well I guess its my fault for not finishing my meds. But anyways, yesterday I had a beautiful time, Me and the Loved one we took off to Temecula with his Brother and Niece, Maya. She is soooo freaking cute, I taught her to say "peace" with her fingers, ahhh she has grown up so much since I seen her. She just talks and babbles, its sooooo cute. I LOVE HER!!!!!!! hahaha
Well last night I had a dream about my abuelita, which was nice since she hasn't come to see me in awhile, but the dream I had about her wasnt so nice. We had gotten into an arguement about something, and she started to ignore me. So as mad as I was, I went to confront her telling her that she couldnt ignore me for long, that she has to talk to me, that it was her fault that we had grown so distant, is she made an attempt to accept me and give me the love and affection that I have longed for, this would not be an issue. When I woke up, I felt a pain in my heart that aches with guilt, nearly 4 years later my guilt, my lack of being the grandaughter she deserved, still hurts me.Why didnt I feel this way with my other grandma? Yes, perhaps its b/c I know she lived in another state, but even though we complained about having to see her, I loved her as crazy as she is I loved her. My grandma was very misunderstood, I understood her a little but I think it's because our LOVE of BIG gaudy jewelry. When will I let this guilt go? Hoagies always told me its the fact that I spent those lost few months with her that mattered, that even if she wasnt aware, she knew I was there.

Whew!

What an exhausting day!!!! Just came back from my BF's sisters house, we baked some cookies, which I ate too much of. And I am barely getting home. So I will make this short, Saw my Pops today, our monthly visits which Im grateful for bc at least I know i HAVE to see him. But man oh man has he aged!!!!!! hahaha. no really, I think life is catching up to him, or I am finally seeing him more often to notice the changes? well thats it today off to bed I go, and ugh I gotta work this weekend=SUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Agh! At least now I can focus on 1 class, I'm kinda sad I dropped my service learning class since it was pretty interesting, but complete 5-6 hours A DAY!?!?! yea I don't have that kind of time, plus they had all these restrictions. so NO BUENO.
on another note, Today I started thinking, how much I have changed. Before i was very carefree, never worried about anything, laughed a lot, and believed in so many things. but for some reason, something has taken that innocence away from me and I don't know what that is. Or is it that I haven't really changed just grew up and realized things about the world? Whatever the reason may be, I miss the old me. I know that we should look onto the past, just focus on the future, but I really miss the old me. I think about the times before I met my hunny, and I yearn to be that person again. Does love really change a person that much to the point that they don't recognize themselves anymore?

rAwR

2nd day of class and I am already falling ASLEEP!!!!! hahHAA. yea well not really interesting.and I think I might have miss my 2nd class=not good.
So I decided that I needed to see my mom, and make some dinner for her. I had a lot on my mind and my mom always knows what to do. I feel better now and a little relieved. Im still some what upset but whatever!!
The boy came down and I enjoyed some "us" time.
Its quite wierd being alone in my room, without the roomie.( sad face) so I have to find ways to entertain myself. LOSER.... hahahaha just 5 more months till summer.... sigh

Welcome

So I decided that it is a good idea to start blogging.
I have lots of stuff flowing through my brain and I need a way to let it out.
I will try REALLY hard to keep this updated as much as possible.
Enjoy reading my thoughts!!!!!