Thursday, February 26, 2009
Funny Funny
Ok so my roomie is taking her Permit test in a couple of weeks, and my leg was hurting last night so I let her drive to Wal-Mart which is like 10 min away, no accidents (THANK GOD), but it was kinda funny. She is gonna need a lot more practice I told her. PLUS, I did like a whole SPRING cleaning in my room last night which helped because the past few nights I have had a really hard time sleeping and I think its because all the clutter was throwing me off, and last night I slept like a doll. Plus no funky stench of dirty dishes....ewwwww. ok I think imma take a nap now hahahaha
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
oh wow
Ok soooo sorry that I havent updated in awhile, I kinda forgot my password. haHA. ok so lots of updates:
1. I sprained my foot (wearing sandals, IN THE RAIN) so it IS kinda my fault. But this happen like 2 wks ago and my foot is still hurting me quite bad. So Im trying to stay off of it and keep it bandaged and iced.
2. My tire blew out on the freeway last week, and my the time I stopped I was facing oncoming traffic. Although a flat tire doesnt seems like much, it was scary being in a car that I had no control over, and I thank the ALL MIGHTY ONE ABOVE and whatever angels he had protecting my car that Im still here. No one hit me, everyone stopped and I never hit anything. So im grateful to be breathing.
3. So many babies coming into this world in my life and I TOTALLY love it!!!My Old Nieghbor, who is like a BIG sister to me is expecting a little boy, and this caught me COMPLETELY by suprise, I am sooo excited about her new baby, that I offered my sisters services to make her baby shower invites. Which are TOTALLY cute. Also, My old HS friend Myrna is expecting a boy who will be ABSOLUTELY friggin cute. My Co-worker(ATE, which is big sister) is also expecting a boy, My other Co-Worker is having a girl. and for the BEST NEWS my cousin LORA is also expectiNG!!!!!!!! This was super exciting because we now that she has been trying for a long time and now god has blessed her and Mitch with a baby. SOOOooooo excited. and on a sadder note, one baby close to me didn't make it to this world.
4. I hate when Parents don't ever stop to think whether or not their lifes matter to us. I personally would want to know if my parent is sick or not so that if I am in any danger I can make the right desicions and figure out the right course of action. Not only to look out for me but also to look out for my parent so that if I need to make decisions for them I can know what im facing. UGH!!! anyways
I will try NOT to forget my code and update more often.
1. I sprained my foot (wearing sandals, IN THE RAIN) so it IS kinda my fault. But this happen like 2 wks ago and my foot is still hurting me quite bad. So Im trying to stay off of it and keep it bandaged and iced.
2. My tire blew out on the freeway last week, and my the time I stopped I was facing oncoming traffic. Although a flat tire doesnt seems like much, it was scary being in a car that I had no control over, and I thank the ALL MIGHTY ONE ABOVE and whatever angels he had protecting my car that Im still here. No one hit me, everyone stopped and I never hit anything. So im grateful to be breathing.
3. So many babies coming into this world in my life and I TOTALLY love it!!!My Old Nieghbor, who is like a BIG sister to me is expecting a little boy, and this caught me COMPLETELY by suprise, I am sooo excited about her new baby, that I offered my sisters services to make her baby shower invites. Which are TOTALLY cute. Also, My old HS friend Myrna is expecting a boy who will be ABSOLUTELY friggin cute. My Co-worker(ATE, which is big sister) is also expecting a boy, My other Co-Worker is having a girl. and for the BEST NEWS my cousin LORA is also expectiNG!!!!!!!! This was super exciting because we now that she has been trying for a long time and now god has blessed her and Mitch with a baby. SOOOooooo excited. and on a sadder note, one baby close to me didn't make it to this world.
4. I hate when Parents don't ever stop to think whether or not their lifes matter to us. I personally would want to know if my parent is sick or not so that if I am in any danger I can make the right desicions and figure out the right course of action. Not only to look out for me but also to look out for my parent so that if I need to make decisions for them I can know what im facing. UGH!!! anyways
I will try NOT to forget my code and update more often.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Amor de un Mama
I never really understood when a mothers say that the hardest thing is to stand back and watch helplessly as thier child goes through a rough patch, till now. I have always been the type to put others before me, thats how I am. I always tried to grow up quicker than I was suppose to, wanting to be the "wise" one, the one that always knew what to do, the one always shelling out advice. Now that the time has come, I now get the pleasure to stand back and watch my mom helplessly. AND IT SUCKS!!!!!! I wish I can wipe all the stress away, this is my mom here, the fearless, independent women who didnt take bs from anyone. My hero, who now needs to be saved. I know everyone is going through rough times, and it sucks. I feel so helpless, I try, I try so hard not to ask much of her, and I know this bugs her so. But its ok mom, I'll be the Supergirl now. Because even though Im the baby, I'll grow up like I should have and take responsibilty like Im suppose to.
Monday, January 26, 2009
aHhhh
Man Im sooooo angry. Ok so today I decided that I am turning the car in and no longer helping my dad make the car payments. I feel relieved, I do, but im mad because he still expects me to give him money when I already told I have none. And I know that when I need him to help me with tuition he wont. And it sucks for reasons beyond my control, I cant run to anyone. So if you know anybody that is willing to give me 50, 000 dollars, no strings, i would be ETERNALLY grateful. HAH! i know that won happen but a girl can dream right?
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
A New Day
WOW! Today history was made. U.S overwhelmingly voted a black man to be our 44th president. And Today he was sworn in. As I watched the day unfold, I never took a moment to take in what this moment in history really meant. Who would have thought that a black man would be our new president. Who would have thought that a female would have even tried to RUN?!?!?! I think that this is clearly a new day in history. A new day that marks a journey that will take us through an emotional roller coaster, its not going to be easy, even Obama said so, but with this historic change, god knows what else will come to us. America truly the land of the beautiful.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Ugh!
Its HOT, and Im sittin at home BORED. And comes to find out I have Bronchitis, which sucks cuz all I do is hack, and choke, and spit up nasty shit. (you probaly didnt need to know that) but ANYWHO, so Im on a quest to listen to some really underground, retro, indie/alternative music that can get me dancing. Im kinda getting tired of the same ol stuff. So I started listening to Ladytron, Ladyhawke which is cool, but I need something that is gonna challenge me. So got any tips? let me know. And if you have a copy of HOUSE-O-HOLICS Vol.2 let me know, I love that shit. but its hard to find.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Dreaming
So I know its been awhile, I actually been sick. NOT AGAIN!!!! Well I guess its my fault for not finishing my meds. But anyways, yesterday I had a beautiful time, Me and the Loved one we took off to Temecula with his Brother and Niece, Maya. She is soooo freaking cute, I taught her to say "peace" with her fingers, ahhh she has grown up so much since I seen her. She just talks and babbles, its sooooo cute. I LOVE HER!!!!!!! hahaha
Well last night I had a dream about my abuelita, which was nice since she hasn't come to see me in awhile, but the dream I had about her wasnt so nice. We had gotten into an arguement about something, and she started to ignore me. So as mad as I was, I went to confront her telling her that she couldnt ignore me for long, that she has to talk to me, that it was her fault that we had grown so distant, is she made an attempt to accept me and give me the love and affection that I have longed for, this would not be an issue. When I woke up, I felt a pain in my heart that aches with guilt, nearly 4 years later my guilt, my lack of being the grandaughter she deserved, still hurts me.Why didnt I feel this way with my other grandma? Yes, perhaps its b/c I know she lived in another state, but even though we complained about having to see her, I loved her as crazy as she is I loved her. My grandma was very misunderstood, I understood her a little but I think it's because our LOVE of BIG gaudy jewelry. When will I let this guilt go? Hoagies always told me its the fact that I spent those lost few months with her that mattered, that even if she wasnt aware, she knew I was there.
Well last night I had a dream about my abuelita, which was nice since she hasn't come to see me in awhile, but the dream I had about her wasnt so nice. We had gotten into an arguement about something, and she started to ignore me. So as mad as I was, I went to confront her telling her that she couldnt ignore me for long, that she has to talk to me, that it was her fault that we had grown so distant, is she made an attempt to accept me and give me the love and affection that I have longed for, this would not be an issue. When I woke up, I felt a pain in my heart that aches with guilt, nearly 4 years later my guilt, my lack of being the grandaughter she deserved, still hurts me.Why didnt I feel this way with my other grandma? Yes, perhaps its b/c I know she lived in another state, but even though we complained about having to see her, I loved her as crazy as she is I loved her. My grandma was very misunderstood, I understood her a little but I think it's because our LOVE of BIG gaudy jewelry. When will I let this guilt go? Hoagies always told me its the fact that I spent those lost few months with her that mattered, that even if she wasnt aware, she knew I was there.
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